My Goals for 2019 part 2

     I decide to continue for the goals list to my second list because I thought I would need more to talk about my next goal and my first goals post was getting kind of long (I can go on and on here) and also needed to wrap it up because I needed to go to work. This will be my most personal post and probably the most painful as well. Also, I still think that the Gators game and the Youtube videos will be the hardest of the bunch compared to my next one (OK more on my Youtube videos) but the others well the only thing that's keeping me from doing them is me (and my bank account and even then I can do some of the stuff on my 2019 goals list). My next goal listed won't be that simple.

Get a Valentine/Girlfriend: Where do I start with this, I don't have much of history in the world of dating. I only have four dates with three women and that's it and I didn't have a date until I was 28. Plus I haven't really that a girlfriend. I called one of the women my girlfriend prematurely and well that ended that. Honestly, I can't remember when I had my last date, I know it was with someone I met on Match.com (the only one from Match.com, the others were from women I met from kickball) it was at least a few years ago. I don't know where to look. I'm not much of an outgoing guy, unsure about Tinder, and There's Match. Where to go with Match.com, I probably spent hundreds of dollars on that website and the only thing I had to show for it is one date. I had better luck with the kickball league I play in than Match.com. Of course, there's always the old fashion way of getting assistance from Family and Friends. Honestly, I don't care if I do get a Valentine and that ends there or I don't get a Valentine but have a girlfriend. Another reason I have little to no luck with women is I aim high, maybe too high for my own good. However, I will defend that by saying if the goal is to get married, Shouldn't I be happy who I chose not kind of sort of happy?

Why I'm doing this? I turn 35 in 2019 and making up for lost times. Also, for the girlfriend one well it's because I had my heartbreak (shattered really). Like the two of the three women I dated, I met her playing in the kickball league I play in. I ask a mutual friend of ours if she was single. The friend said yes but she's busy with her business and spent time with her family. Figured to ask anyway because why not ask? I did she agree to a lunch date and this is where things get bumpy. I waited for two months to the date to happen but she was busy or traveling. During this time, I contact another friend after it was taking a while and that friend told me she was avoiding making plans with me. Probably should have listened. A few days after I got back from one of my many trips to Arizona, she told me she was dating someone else. So she was too busy for me not that for someone else? What a bitch move (and it would it a dick move if I guy did the same thing). In the words of Puddle of Mudd (She Hates Me is the theme song of that situation), I tried too hard and she tore my feelings like a had none and ripped them away. I felt like Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed (except minus the eggs) where her character thought she had a date to prom with her dream guy and when he arrived he shows up to her house in a limo and with his real date and they threw eggs at her (ASSHOLES and again minus the eggs in my situation). Also felt like Coach Klein in the Waterboy when Coach Red stole his green book (the difference was I got my heart back though shattered in a million pieces and I still trying to collect pieces). Also, the scene where Happy Gilmore got hazed Shooter McGavin with the sprinkler system on the golf course. OK, you get the point. Honestly, I don't think I can fully recover from this. I need to try again and find someone. Here's to hoping for a better 2019. Also, I'll try to keep you guys updated on my goals list and if you want to help me out on my list, feel free to message me on Facebook.